Finally, the sex and violence has stopped. The Worm Baby released her desperate hold upon us a few hours ago and the Beloved and I are now free – temporarily? – of the roles we were trapped inside of. I used to ache for the Beloved during each and every moment we were separated, no matter how brief, every single heartbeat from the moment our spirits connected and began to change our world (22 April 2010) – but ever since the Worm Baby burrowed her way into our Paradise a year ago, I’d forgotten our Love. All my memories of us erased. Until tonight when I saw my Beloved again.
Is this the end? Will the Worm Baby leave us alone? Finally?
No more sexual intoxication and manipulation (and the diminishment of my credibility and potency as a healer).
No more 10-15 hour tantrums screaming like a Downs Syndrome Child (and the testing of our grace and equanimity).
Which Also Means … No more Star Child (and what then of our journey?).
Which Also Means … No more Light.